Mid Life Crisis?

I think I'm having a mid-life crisis.  I feel so uninspired lately and even though I am blessed to have a wonderful husband, family, children, friends and a well-paying job, I feel like something is missing.  I feel extreme guilt typing that, because I realize how lucky I am, but am hoping that writing about it will help me work through some of these feelings.

I think a lot of my feeling has to do with my job.  I have to do a lot of cold-calling and ass kissing of doctors, as well as their snooty staff and I it gets old.  Don't get me wrong - they are not all bad, but it's just not what I want to do with the rest of my life.  However, the sad part is that I don't have any real passion to do anything else.  I think being a personal trainer would be fun, but I'd need to get in shape before I pursued something like that or I'd feel like a fraud.  Plus, there is no way in my market that I'd make anywhere near the money that I make now.  It's easy to say money isn't important, but when your family is used to a certain lifestyle, it's hard to change.  However, personal training is something I could do on the side and hopefully it would give me a spark that would help me get through a not so inspiring full-time job.

I don't know if you all remember since it's been 3 weeks since I posted last (yes I gave myself 100 lashes with a wet noodle for being such a bad blogger), but I got a.2 fill on April 20th, but haven't noticed any difference.  I really want to lose 10 lbs by my bandiversary on July 9th so that will bring me to 50 lbs down in a year.  In order to do that, I need to get my shit together.  I haven't gotten back to regular exercise since going on vacation to Universal and need to get back in the groove.  For me, exercise is key to losing weight.  Not only do I get the obvious benefits of burning calories, but it puts me in the right frame of mind me.  The physical I am, the healthier I want to eat. 

Hope you all had a wonderful mother's day.  It is bittersweet for me because my mom's absence is especially hard on this day, but my hubby and daughters always make me feel special.  This year we went shopping at the Lane Bryant outlet in Lancaster, PA, which is about an hour from us.  It was a little challenging because I didn't want to spend too much money on clothes that I hope to be out of soon, but I wanted some outfits that I feel attractive in.   Luckily, they were having a 40% off sale so I got a few nice outfits for not so much money.  My hubby was great giving me his opinion and the salesperson was amazed at how much time I spent trying on clothes without Dave complaining once. Afterwards we went to a nice lunch. 

Take care and hope you all have a good week.