Cukiemunstr - I can't comment on your blog

I'm not sure what happened, but I can't leave comments on your blog any more.  I am so sorry about your friends and co-workers.  Life really sucks sometimes and this week is definitely one of those weeks. 

BYOC in honor of Barbara

I agree with Drazil that Barbara would want us to continue on with BYOC Friday.  I had the privilege of meeting Barbara in Chicago and she is the kind of person you feel comfortable with right away.  Her positive attitude through her husband's illness has been amazing.  It embarrasses me to think about the whining I do about not losing weight when she was dealing with such a significant issue.    On top of it all, she still found time to leave supportive comments for me.  My heart breaks for her and her family. 

On to BYOC….



1. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I do not.  However, I do believe in lust at first sight.

2. What’s your idea of a romantic evening?

My husband and I have a lot of good times together, but there is something about getting dressed up and going out to a nice restaurant that feels romantic.   It's nice to have a drink and a swanky bar beforehand and then sit down to an excellent dinner.  I'd love to go dancing after, but hubby doesn't dance so gotta leave that out. 

3. Who was your first crush?

Not sure if I can remember that far back to my first crush.  When I was a preteen, I used to kiss my Sean Cassidy poster every night.  And I swear his eyes followed me around my room.  He was mesmerized by me. 

4. What do you believe is a stronger emotion – love or hate?

I think they are different sides of the same coin and are equal. 

5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blogland and in real life.

The fill by fluoro scheduled yestereday that I so need was cancelled because of snow.  I've rescheduled for next Thursday morning and there is again snow in the forecast.  However, it is hard to get down about such a small problem given what Barbara and her family are dealing with.

Hugs and kisses to all of you. 

Fun News, Good News, Disappointing News, Crappy News

Fun News:  Had a lovely dinner with Linda, Read and Angie last night at PF Changs.  I feel so lucky to have such great band sisters local.  I really need to learn how to pose in a picture. 

Good News:  Went to the gym with my girls tonight.  We are COMMITTED (my 2011 word) to go at least 3 times this week.  I will supplement with some workouts at home too. 

Disappointing News:  Unfortunately the Body Combat class I was so excited to take has been suspended indefinitely because the girl who teaches the class has an injury.  It was replaced with Boot Camp, which I'm not really interested in.  Hopefully the instructor will heal quickly.

Crappy News:  The fill by fluoroscopy I had scheduled for this Thursday morning has been rescheduled for next Thursday because of the possible bad weather that is moving in.  Crappity crap crap.  I hate snow. 

BYOC Friday on Saturday and my Word for the Year

It’s Friday (ok, it's Saturday, but it was Friday when I answered the questions) – so it’s BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy. 5 questions you can copy and paste into your blog to give your brain a break and to get to know each other better!
 
1. For $50,000 – would you go without brushing your teeth, showering or wearing deodorant for 3 months?

I think brushing teeth would be the only possible option - especially if I could use mouthwash.  Hey, the question says "brushing teeth" so I don't think I'm cheating. 

2. Is it harder to tell someone you love them or harder to tell someone you don’t love them back?

I was so blessed to have a mother who said "I love you" all the time.  My father didn't say the words as much, but his actions were loud and clear.  It's much worse to have to tell someone I don't love them back.  I had to do that 2 times in my early 20s and it was not fun. 


3. What is on your bedside table?

Lamp, book I'm reading, kleenex, chapstick and my charging cell phone.  Thank God you didn't ask about the drawer in my nightstand.  Okay, I know what you are all thinking, but don't even go there.  I was just saying that because I have so much junk in my drawer it would take me way too long to type it all.  Get your mind out of the gutter. 


4. If you could be invisible, who would you kiss?

I agree with a few of you who said that kissing someone without them knowing who you are or wanting a kiss, isn't much fun. 

5. Repeat question: Summarize your life in blog land and real life.

I worked out with my daughters at our gym on Monday.  We got them memberships for Christmas and this was the first time we went together (Hubby was working, so he didn't go).  We had a great time and planned on going back to take a Body Combat class and Zumba within the week.  Unfortunately, we didn't.  I wish I could tell you it was for good reason, but alas it was not.  I'm so mad at myself.  I don't understand why I get lazy and talk myself out of going when once I get there I have so much fun and feel so good.  I especially feel bad because now my daughters are involved and I don't want them to get int he habit of making excuses not to work out.  Well, this leads me into my word for the year. 

I've thought long and hard about my word for 2011. I think I knew it all the time, but couldn't admit it. Which is ironic that I couldn't commit to my word because my word is...COMMIT

Definitions are as follows:

to give in trust or charge; consign.

to consign for preservation: to commit ideas to writing; to commit a poem to memory.

to pledge (oneself) to a position on an issue or question; express (one's intention, feeling, etc.): Asked if he was a candidate, he refused to commit himself.

to bind or obligate, as by pledge or assurance; pledge: to commit oneself to a promise; to be committed to a course of action.

to entrust, esp. for safekeeping; commend: to commit one's soul to god.

to do; perform; perpetrate:

to send into a battle: The commander has committed all his troops to the front lines.

to pledge or engage oneself: an athlete who commits to the highest standards.

I've been somewhat passive in utilizing my band and really need to step things up. I have to accept that I need to work my tool (that sounds a little perverted) and I need to commit to this lifestyle.  I knew intellectually that the band alone wasn't going to get me to goal, but I had hoped it would get me a little closer than it has.  As I've mentioned a few hundred times I'm getting a fill by fluoro on Thursday and am hoping that will get me to the restriction I expected. 

I am so depressed that I won't be watching the Ravens play tomorrow.  Their loss against the Steelers last week was hard to take given how well we did in the first half.  I don't even want to watch football tomorrow, but my husband and daughter are too hard core not too.  Of course we are hoping the Steelers lose (apologies to their fans, but I've been a Ravens fan longer than I've been a blogger).  : )

Favor

A friend of ours is in a band and they are going for a recording contract.  If you could go to this website and vote for them, I'd really appreciate it.  They are taking votes until end of January.  They are Blu Avenue and are in 6th place as of now.  Thanks in advance for your support. 

I promise I will do my new year word post soon.  I've been bouncing around a few words in my head and will make a decision soon. 

My daughters and I went to the gym today for about an hour and had a great time.  We are going back tomorrow to take a Body Combat class.  Look out!  I might just become a bad ass. 

BYOC Friday

It’s Friday which means it’s BYOC time. That’s Bring Your Own Crazy….5 little questions you can copy and paste into your own blog to give your brain a break and to get to know your fellow bloggers better.


Enjoy!

1. If you were on death row, what would your last meal be before your “death”?

I'm assuming this means what I would eat if I didn't have the band so it would be a nice and juicy medium rare filet mignion with a crabcake.  Garlic mashed potatoes too with fresh asparagus. 

2. If you drive a car, do you speed?

If I'm alone, but if I have the kids in the car I tend to do the speed limit.  Kind of a weird way of thinking, but it is what it is. 
3. What movie(s) do/can you watch over and over again?

I really don't watch movies over and over again, but if I did it would be the Harry Potter movies, Love Actually, The Lost Boys, The Sixth Sense, Terminator movies, Matrix movies, and Officer and a Gentleman. 
4. What’s your favorite blog topic to read about and your favorite blog topic to write about?

To read about – those who have been having a heard time and then things click and the scale starts moving in the right direction again.


To write about – I'd love to write great inspirational things about how I am rocking the band and the weight is melting off me.  Hopefully I'll get to write that way soon. 

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blogland and in real life.

I'm trying to keep up with blogs and comments as much as possible.  I'm a bit of a funk since my weight loss has stalled, but hoping that the fill under fluoro on 1/27 will answer some questions.  I'm very excited because the Baltimore Ravens are in the playoffs.  I'll be glued to the tv tomorrow at 4:30 hoping they beat Pittsburgh, but it is going to be a tough game.  Joe Flacco needs to show up if we have any chance of winning. 

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Just a Quickie

Not THAT kind of quickie, you bunch of pervs!

Sorry I haven't been around in a while.  Just wanted to give you a quick update that I had appointment with my surgeon today.  I gained 1/2 lb this past month.  Not terrible considering all the socializing drinking I did over the holidays.  However, I haven't lost anything significant in 3 months so that's not cool.  I am going to get a fill by fluoro on 1/27 so he can see what my band is actually doing.  I'm happy with this because I feel like I will get an answer about what is going on.  I mean, if my band is doing it's job to the best of it's ability then I guess it is what it is and I have to rely more on my willpower than I thought. 

Believe it or not I am still thinking about my word for this year.  Overanalyze much?  I think that after my fill by fluoro I'll be in a better frame of mind to think about what I want it to be. 

I saw a pretty good article on msn about "10 Ways To Tap Your Inner Willpower".    Had some techniques that I actually hadn't heard before, but of course there were some that I knew.  Thought I'd pass it on in case you are interested.

I'm definitely in a funk so I apologize for not commenting as much as usual, but I am trying to stay current with your blogs.  However, to be fair, this dark cloud isn't just about lack of weight loss.  I found out a very good friend has ovarian cancer.  Luckily it seems like they caught it early, but still worried for her.  Also, my husband has been having some gastro problems so he's going in for an endoscopy tomorrow.  I'm sure everything is fine, but it always freaks me out when friends and family go for any kind of medical tests.  When I did my preop tests before my lapband surgery, I was sure they would find some life-threatening disease, but all was good, so I just need to chill.  I really wish my positive panties hadn't got lost in the laundry. 

Holiday Catch Up

Sorry I haven't been around much.  Holidays have been busy, busy, busy, but a lot of fun.  My daughters said this was the "best Christmas ever" and while I think a big part of it is materialistic (they both got Droids this year and a ton of other stuff), I'd like to think that part of it comes from a more emotional place.  This is the first year they bought each other birthday AND Christmas presents.  They both have holiday birthdays - one is Nov 28 and the other Dec 22 - (great planning, huh) so they usually just give each other one gift.  Then they both went in together and bought Dave and I a present.  All with their own money. 

Our Christmas day is always so relaxing.  Dave and I made a decision when the kids were little that on Christmas we would stay in our pjs all day, let the girls play with their stuff and not go anywhere.  We schedule Christmas with my family the week after Christmas day and Dave's family is out of town and we don't get along with them so we don't have to worry about that side.  We were hoping for a white Christmas and while there were a few flurries, nothing too exciting.  We did get snow the day after, but we went to a football party so it was a little slippery getting home.  However, it still wasn't enough to cause any real problems.  Plus it was worth braving the weather to hang out with fellow Ravens fans to watch them beat the Browns.  I am so excited that we've made the playoffs. 

New Years was fun.  We went out for the first time in a few years.  A friend of a my brother and sister-in-law had a party and it was nice because it was both adults and kids.  They had Wii upstairs for the kids to play (and some of the adults joined in after a few drinks) and they have a nice finished basement with a bar, flat screen tv behind the bar and a big living room area.  We didn't know anybody except for my brother and sister-in-law, but everybody was really friendly.  They set off fireworks at midnight and then we went back in to do some more drinking and we all sang to the songs they were playing.  I wasn't feeling so great when I got home because I made the mistake of too much drinking and not enough eating, but actually felt okay today. 

I'm not sure what my word for 2011 is going to be yet.  I need to think about it some more before I commit.  We got our daughters memberships to our gym so hopefully working out will be a family affair.  I definitely need to start kicking in the exercise and get more serious about working my band.  I only have 6 months before Summer and I have quite a ways to go.  I know I won't be to goal by Summer, but I'm hoping to at least be in the low 200s. 

I have my next appointment with my surgeon on the 12th and as of right now I have not lost any weight.  I hadn't lost any weight at my last weigh in either and ended up getting .2 taken out of my band instead of the fill I was expecting.  I'm really going to start tracking what I eat this next week and how long it takes me to get hungry so I can have all the details when I see my doc. 

Hope you all had a wonderful holiday and here's to making 2011 one of the best years yet.